problems, much?

yeah. so i've been thinking, while on my thanksgiving holiday(a bad time to do this but....)and i honestly have just been thinking about how much i miss my friends. there's....honestly about 5 people i genuinely(sp?) care for and are just wondering what's going on with them right now.

you always read about the 3 friends who have known each other forever and are gonna be friends always.....i''ve never really known anyone like that, and i have a feeling that it's never going to happen because i always jump around from clique to-well, they're not really cliques;i shouldn't say that. but, everytime i think i've made an awesome friend, it turns out that they were just using me until they got bored, or i had gotten them what they wanted. but...ever since i've started to be myself and not really worry about what other people think of me, i've been okay, and been becoming closer to certain people, which makes me think that this time, i'll have friends who i'm gonna be okay with, no matter what.

but thats what i thought each time i got new friends, so who knows? most of my friends are complete jerks, but we're all so...so....well, so something with each other that we all just get along so well. and we always have fun.

and i'm worried that when we graduate, we'll be seperated....which, now that i think more about it, i'm not going to let that happen.

yeah, its important to have a good life, but...i think its more important to be doing something you honestly love, and keeping the friends you have with you. because you don't have to grow up.

sure, you have to mature a bit, and grow older....but last time i checked, there is no rule that says you have to grow up.